But my baby made the sun come out when I left, not a cloud in the sky. The pain, the guilt, all of it. I do plan on getting a friend for my girl, but have to wait about another 2 months for that. I lost my beautiful maltese girl of 11 years and half on 21.09.2017. I am simply devastated. I still break down in tears remembering how special he was and our connection to him. We don’t what exactly happened. He came to me in my parental bedroom, leaping onto my bed. I lost my dad 2 years ago and that pain still runs so deep. Although he was the runt of the litter , he was a joy to both of us. We had him since I was 6 years old. She was 12 1/2 and had a very bad heart, so I did what the Vet said was the right thing to do and let her go. Thank you from the deepest corners of my heart for this page and all the posts … I thought I was alone in feeling this level of loss. I just lost my 17 year chihuahua .. he was my life, my world is tore apart. I wanted to hold her and take her away, but I couldn’t. Every dog is irreplaceable. I sure miss you, and half of me died when you did. Just knowing I won’t see my baby again gives me such a frightening feeling. I keep praying but still hurts so bad We miss him so much he was our baby our child. I still cannot get over the loss. And I think back to the wonderful life he gave me and we spent together. I lost my dog 3 years ago and I still mourn him. This grief feels debilitating. Our home is completely shifted. I have a wonderful therapist who understands completely. I feel your pain, I just lost my beloved Snowball Friday April 5, 2019. Thank you everyone for sharing your experiences. It’s hard to imagine a life without her in it. Today we had to let her go. But because we are not capable of it like a dog is. I had her since she was a puppy, she was a rescue but it was actually I who was the rescued. I lost my beautiful baby girl Feb 2nd …. I lost my beloved father 20 years ago from lung cancer; I’m almost ashamed to say that the grief of feel for the loss of Petey exceeds the grief I felt for my dad. We didn’t just go for walks everyday, but went on adventures. I am adjusting but life will never be the same. I never knew a human can feel so much emotional pain after losing my mother at the age of 15. His hearing and vision was suddenly poor but if I didn’t put my dad down due to Alzheimers, how could I do it to my love; Chip. I wouldn’t be surprised if he knew 100 words or more. Her coats and harness are still piled up on the bed too, and her blanket is next to me so I can smell her. I hope she has forgiven me. I know it is hard. "We did everything together. He started to sleep in my sons room. It’s good to know I’m not alone. But she looked in Skips ears and didn’t see ear infection. The grief process. I lost my dog May 18th and it feels like he’s been gone forever when it’s only been 6 weeks or so. she was an amazing companion for my wife and I both. Cooch died on August 9 at 4:15. I feel like I’m being short with people and I don’t mean to be but I think I am because I hurt so bad inside. My heart hurts more than I’ve ever felt before, the pain is totally crippling and yet you have to somehow ‘carry on’. We rushed him to the emergency animal hospital, and they came back with horrible news. Think deeply about your Sweet…….He lived a full doggie life at 14 years, that’s in the 80’s in human years. Part of my job went with her. I’m not the person I was. But I have learned how to grieve over the years, and the Rainbow Bridge concept helped a lot. He gave me so much. I’m a wreck. My wonderful loving Airedale Darby!!!! I know time heals all wounds but…. Jan 16th 2015. I knew it was time and yet I still don’t know it was time. I have some of his toys and I just feel better having them near me. One of the coping mechanisms i used was to put together key lessons learnt from trying to save our dog from lymphoma, with the hope that others who are dealing with the same incurable disease may learn from us the easy way. It was the most miserable experience of my life to have to put him down. Sometimes I feel like my friends do not understand this grief I am experiencing. Me and my dog had a special connection. At minstrel shows She was a wire fox terrier, 11 and in great shape. Nothing is the same, the house is cold, lifeless and I’ve isolated myself and go nowhere I don’t have to All interests in former hobbies are gone. I don’t know how I am going to go on. I cry multiple times a day, and even thought I saw him a couple times out of the corner of my eye the day after he died. I realize when there is a connection with a pet they learn how to read you and you learn how to read them. I go visit her grave everyday the first dat 3-4x yesterday 3xs today 2xs only bc it was so windy. She was gentle, kind, protective, sympathetic, showed empathy and loved everyone of those children with all her heart. So when people ridicule your grief because it was “just a dog”, just know and understand that they are only able to comprehend what conditional love is like. I still feel guilty about putting her to sleep. I just lost my sweet coonhound 3 days ago and I am devastated. She was 14 and 2 months and lived every day to the fullest. He never came home. I have lost dogs before but this one was special like no other. I hear him walking still. I even felt guilty about the way I feel, till I read this article. I’ve never been one to touch or hold someone or something that has died, but Lola was different. I just want him back so much. I wanted to pull him away last minute and we jump in the car and speed away from the terrible thing we had to do and rescue him from the vet that was going to send him to sleep…but I knew I Had to do it for him and for me. She was the best friend that I have ever had and its been almost three months since she died and I still grieve deeply. Continue to love other dogs, your heart is so big it can accommodate lots of loving fur babies. Prayers for each of you as you fight through this grieving process! I also can’t believe he’s gone. My 12 year old Lab – Chiamy, had to have surgery to remove a fatty tumor on his side. And no human being alive has that gift, with the exception of Jesus while He was here with us on earth. I think back to the first day I adopted him from the shelter when he was a wee 1.5 years old . I was going to be at the vet’s Office Monday morning when they opened. I love you my Loki and Chiamy. It explains so much the deepest grief I have ever experienced. We lost our sweet Tarra Pom 3 weeks this Thursday. The afternoon she had her usual swim in the pool…diving in like a human . I want my girl back!!!???? May she RIP and so may your beloved dogs. Thank you again for your words. That is why, after a long day, all we want to do is go home to see our dogs. Over the course of my life, I’ve lost my grandparents, my mother, a step-dad, several friends, two childhood dogs, and a childhood cat. I lost my boy almost 4 months ago. Will I ever run out of tears? I did not really know how to deal with his grief, leave alone my own. When my dog died, I didn’t understand why it felt like a human had died. I just couldn’t imagine taking her home to suffer. Thank you for sharing. I lost my little dog and it has nothing on the pain I experience everyday from my child’s death. You do realize their life spans are much shorter than a human.. which you are also? I feel your pain, although my Sissy was diagnosed with a brain tumour, but it all seem started when I kicked her out of bed that night and she twisted her neck. I’ve read about the mourning process and I try to share my story with anybody who cares. I thought it might be something they could remove and she would be able to come back home but nope. We had decided we would stop at two children and it was time for another dog (previous dogs before children). What didn’t I do? My heart has never felt so much pain. I’m not too good at expressing my feelings. I had to do the best for Lennox but still it makes it no easier to come to terms with. In that, my dog gave me a glimpse as to what heaven is like! My girl was so small. So that one day when we must face the first walk down our favourite trail alone, we are surprised to find that they are now deeper companions of the heart, where they journey on with us always. The episodes progressed to the point that one New Years Eve I was so thankful I hadn’t gone out because they were happening so frequently. Wouldn’t he want that? ABSOLUTELY, CLAIRE! I came across this after googling why it’s so hard when a dog dies. I never cried this much over any relative even my dad when he died because i spent more time with Max than any other living being ever. Two days ago I had to put Mika down – she hadn’t moved for 2 days and the vet figured it was cancer, especially since that is the #1 killer of goldens. I was there when he was born on 1/2/2009 and raised him from birth. I,m so sorry to hear about your little girl and hope every day gets a little easier for us but I’m sure we will miss our girls for the rest of our lives. It ripped me apart. Our hearts are broken. I don’t know why, and yet we gave them the best lives ever and we sometimes think of the bad times, like when we went out and left them home alone waiting for us, but we couldn’t take them out ALL the time. I hope you feel less pain. We scheduled his surgery and was looking forward to bringing him home and getting him on the road to recovery. I rushed him to the clinic and they performed emergency surgery. As time goes by I know I’ll find a way to keep on living. His death has been far worse than the death of my Dad (very unexpected) my Mom (who was ill for a long time) and my sister (she battled cancer). I am having a tougher time with this, I think, more than any other pet loss. Hopefully when she’s older she will settle in more. Losing my dog was by far the WORST loss I’ve ever experienced, worse than losing my father, mother, grandparents, and brother. I understand the depression you feel. We went to second doctor and again many tests X-ray., meds for appetite and he said arthritis, med for arthritis. I wish there was a way for us to commuinicate. Vets need to be honest and not string people out to make $$. Her husband died. We are devastated beyond measure. I hope everyone else here can appreciate their amazing friends too. He was a small, 13yo Bedlington terrier with the largest spirit. He was a great dog and will be missed deeply. I wasn’t there when they put him down because I had to work and he was staying with my parents. Sadly he is gone forever and I want to die every day. Ragsy stayed in his pen except when I held him as we watched TV. I am plagued with feelings of guilt. So sorry for your losses Sandra and Doreen best wishes I lost my baby girl 5 weeks ago I still miss her terribly and cry every day. And communicating through a medium was the one comforting action I took that I will never regret. My life revolved around Roxie and now I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. I still can’t get over the sorrow and guilt of not knowing soon enough that he has kidney failure and not seeking a vet because of financial reason. My first dog ever. Evenings and mornings are the worst – I miss the routines. I have had put my beloved Sissy, a 13 years old French bulldog down due to Glioma, she was suffering more night by night, but she could still find a few mins of joy when she felt better every day. I was looking forward to them meeting.it was on Halloween. Thank you so much for this article, it has really helped me. A part of me thought everyone did this from time to time. My beloved Linus the best Scottie ever born, 7 years is way to young. I promised him that one day I will be able to say goodnight without crying. Just to let you know I lost my baby boy (GSD)Lennox on the 23 rd June – he was 12.5 yrs old and I’d had him from 6 weeks of age. Do I feel guilt? I love you Charlie boy I’ll never forget you xxx. I took the day off work to be with her, to make sure she had the best chance to pull through, I offered her rice and cheese sticks, she would not eat, and I could not give her the medication that was given to us. Feel sorry for those who don’t grieve deeply when their pet passes, because they had unconditional love right in front of their faces for years and never had the sense to see it. I function just enough to make it through the workday, then I come home and mope. We lost our beautiful little Boston Terrier two months ago, she was only 2 years ten months old. They traveled about. I grieved intensely the first few days and then resumed my routine. I’ve never cried so much in my life. My evil skank sister had Toby put down because he bit her fat stupid daughter. That day I gave Ragsy a bath and the next day my wife took Ragsy to the vet to get his shots and something for the fleas. This post is helpful. 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